My Will

A loyal friend to me, you can hardly leave. Never lonely I can ever be. Never turn away,your always here. The situation is getting tense and what else can I do. I'm Lan, and why should I give up. Friend of mine, hey..I'd like to say thank you for your concern. It's very kind for some of you for saying words of wisdom as simple as "Don't give up" and "Do your best". That boosted my confidence so much and I totally get it why are you all my friends. Never once I will feel I had done so much in return for your kindness. There's no way I could repay you. A friend of mine preferred to do it the 'harsh' way,as in saying the most possible honest rough words. No worries, I really appreciate it, dude. It really sticked into my mind and at least for every harsh words you said to me was very sensible and gave me a lot to think about. I respect for the honesty and the good reason of yours. Correct me if I'm wrong. I'll never push them away and ignore it. I'm not ignorant. It's just that I take a long time to adapt to the 'preferred' change you wanted me to make. In no way I'm torn, thankful I am to you. =D heheh..

A little lecture might be going on in this post. I just wanna say it out to other depressed guys and girls. Not to feel so broken, turning weaker and low morale. I did it 'successfully' for two days now. I was complained and confronted in front of my own members for the unsatisfied jobs I done. You probably wouldn't mind much if you're to be confronted by your boss personally and commented you with harshest of words. Put yourself in a situation where everyone is watching you, and in that very same moment, your weakness revealed. Feeling of embarassed will not be excluded. No one would smile in this situation unless you're crazy enough to do so. hehe.. The 'fragile-at-heart' type of person, would just cry even before the words reach the ears. Do not take it too deep into the heart. Be optimistic. Get stronger when words were said. Comments were made. 'Contented' ones, is not a crime to turn into an angry one. Angry only to the point where the words said turned into a challenge to you. Words can't bring us down and don't even expect it to fail us. You just failed the most simplest of challenge if you couldn't compete with those words. I'm all with you. Get up. I keep in mind, I am special like others too. There's nothing I can't do. Push me, I'll wait for you at the finishing point. Brunei Yakin.haha!.. ("p )