Miserable

Complain was said.Interpretation was set. Damn.. What does it feel like to have your complains pushed aside and no positive answers is given? Balancing out my decision making is barely on me and my thoughts were nothing but crap idea. Work is given and that will be my first priority. I did this and I don't see why are they not acknowledging my work. Why is that everytime I did a good thing, no one will notice. And why is when I dispair, everyone will point at me and make me feel like I'm a failure. What does it feel like when you failed in something and they say something like "you're a failure" instead of "You tried your best"? wtf.. Can you not tell me something that can motivate me instead of demotivating me? Friendship sake, tell me something that'll boost my self-confidence! Wait, i forgot. You can't. You push me down just to let me see you pull me up and say "there's a lot more to think about". Don't make me feel this way, okay? I'm not as ignorant as you think. If you treasure our friendship, don't push me. I'm not made to handle tense situation. You know how contented I am and let me not show my most annoying side of me. If pushing aside others' complain would keep me on track, then why did you spit so much on to me? That'll let me off the track cuz my path got to wet with those spit. I'm looking forward for your tolerance as how much I had gave you before. =)

Okay2..let's get myself back on track. A lot of things sure did happened at school today. The memo I was told to do, I missed out an important info that I was suppose to include. The memo was about to gather the members and to report themselves to a friend of mine. I did mention on Monday to meet my friend but I left out " on 17th Nov". ("-_-) see..they will notice very much of my mistakes instead of what I'm trying to show to them. I can only pray "God,help me in anyway. Just show me some sort of sign and let me out of this misery.". I missed my best friend so much. She was the only girl I will let my problems shared. It was not her words that motivate me, it was how much she meant it and how bad she wants me to show my smile to her. We are going each other's ways and we live kinda far from each other. which obviously is not as close as we were last year. That soft tone of her voice chills me everytime and her cute face made it cooler. hehe.. o'oow... Maybe I should stop for now. huh...pink box buddy. ehe..nah..I just wanna stop cuz my eyes are 'low power' right now. So, be typing more next time. x)