Hey there again readers. My 2 weeks of stress is gonna end soon and it's gonna end by 12am tomorrow!! Finally..I don't really have time to rest myself as there is too many event in 2 weeks. If an approximation is to be made, it was like an event for every day. What the heck..
Talking about last night, I went to a party at Sutera Biru. Well,it was cool. Fun I can say. I'm not sure if I am that usual 'Lan' that night. My buddy,Afi called me a 'party animal'. Gotta agree with that cuz I never been so crazy before. It was all about trying to hide this 'scar' in me with my joy. It was 27th November and something sweet happened last 2 years. 25th November 2006 was the worst birthday ever. Well, I'm telling ya and not gonna say who the girl is. My birthday in 2006, the prom night, my heart was like torn so much. So hurt in fact, it 'shattered'. Though, I managed to give smile to my friends cuz I dun wanna spoil theirs. Back at home, before the prom, I was in my room, taking long hours to figure out how to look good for the night. And so I came to the prom with my hope to at least get a wish or even get to have a long conversation with her. The wish did come true. but not the other one as her guy was there too,obviously as her date for the night (my own good friend..but we're still cool..ehe). How hurting can it be to see your dream girl dancing with other guy on the night of your birthday? Don't mention it. I felt it, so strong. I'm the type of guy who always hope for the miracle to come.
It did come, two days after. It was about 6pm when I got online and chat with her. It was one long chat and I remember I felt the time was going very slow. At 7, I was supposed to go to take my shower but I can't. I'm stucked to my chair and continued to chat with her. We came up to a point where not so in the chatroom but as if we were facing each other and confess. She started up with an apology "sorry..". I wondered why (how can i wonder??). I couldn't believe that she was sorry to spoil my night. I gotta lie so she won't feel so guilty. And so I said "it's ok..he's ur boyfriend". Not so sure if she really meant it when she said she still love me. oohh how I wish she could whisper that to my ears. smiling wide.. Good thing my parents didn't get upset for me to be in a relationship to a daughter of their own friend. Where can I hide my face if my father was looking at my background, with her picture on and "I Love You" beneath the picture? I didn't hide. I faced 'reality'.
dang..Gotta go now.I'm getting sleepy. I'll talk more. xD and MORE PICS!
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